urrrghgghghhghh : 04/05/2026

my brain's been turned inside-out

good morning blog, i forgot to do the weekly update yesterday so i'm doin' it today.

this last week was like... okay i guess. it was nice to get a break finally but i don't feel any more ready to start the new week. my opinions on dropping out of school haven't changed a lick and i don't think they ever will.

my mom's really been trying to help me with a bunch of ideas and whatnot. i do appreciate the help but i don't know how much longer i can let her waste all this effort before i have to tell her i want to drop out.

i wish i could pull together the courage to say something, and i know things'll only get worse the longer i wait. but, goddamn it's really not easy to speak up about something like that! especially for someone like me, who basically never speaks up about... anything really.

this week, i was supposed to catch up on all the bullshit i missed over the... nearly entire month i skipped school... but i barely even touched anything. i spent most of this week working on a roblox game i've been slowly chipping away at for nearly two years at this point.

that's been fun at least, i've been making good progress on it and i'm really proud of what i've done so far.

of course, that's not what i was supposed to have been doing this entire time. but like- ugh? god forbid a girl spends her time doing one of the few things that brings her joy at some of her lowest points in life? *rolls my fckin' eyes*

jokes aside, i am regretting my decision to just... not work on anything school-related... but fuckin' hell whatever! i'm so so so sick to death of anything even adjacent to anything educational!!! fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess besides all of that shit, this week wasn't all that bad. definitely better than most i've had in recent times. i think i'll be okay. eventually at least.